When Simple Is Not That Simple

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How do you define simplicity? What is simple to you?

My definition of simplicity may be waaaaay too different than yours and here’s why.

I want things simple. That’s what I said to Ino about our wedding. I want a simple married life, a simple wedding and a simple website. However, I’m really struggling with how I want to execute the simplicity in my visions.

When I told Ino about wanting a simple married life, I envisioned that we will just get by with whatever we have and have a simple lifestyle. When we were planning about our wedding and how simple our wedding will be, I realized that I can actually settle for little things. However, when we were looking for the church I told him that I want an old church. I told him that I want to walk down a long aisle. When we were talking about the gowns, I told him that I want specific designs. However, my definition of simple is not really simple because I am into specific things. I guess, this is the proof that I’m really high maintenance and my definition of simple is far from simple.

I have been thinking about what to do with my new domain. I told him that I want something simple. I envisioned my theme to be just black and white with a side bar and a header.

When he asked me if I want a Theme-centric or a Plug In-centric website, of course I don’t really know what those jargon are. He explained every little detail to me and I can’t remember the differences any more. What I just remembered was that he suggested for me to have the Plug-in centric. Since, he is my programmer / web developer / future husband, I trust him.

I told him what I want to see and have on my own website. I’m actually thinking of having my regular blog with some adverts. Much like this one or the one I have in Tumblr but more specific. He told me to write down the things that I want so I did as soon as we got home.

I started doing my list even if I was very sick. I was very excited because it’s going to be my first website and I’m really looking forward to it. My list was very elaborate. I really wrote down everything that I want, how I want it to look, and every little detail on my website as well.

There are simple worries and set backs ‘though. Knowing that I’m just an ordinary person. I’m not a daughter of any celebrity or someone famous. I often find inspirations on their websites and posts, make up reviews, etc. They have a huge following but my WordPress and Tumblr followers are very few compared to theirs. Who would be interested to read my thoughts, perspectives and experiences? I’m just a dot in the crowd but I’m willing to take the plunge.

If any of my followers is reading this, I hope to see you on my new home. 🙂 Thank you for making my WordPress stay worthwhile.

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Happy Friday!

It’s been a long time since I posted something in here. I apologize. There were so many things that happened and I wasn’t able to update my blog that often. I tend to rationalize that I really didn’t mean to blog because I don’t want to take the time of my Wattpad updates.

Time management is indeed one of my weaknesses. I don’t really have a blogging schedule like everybody else in the blogging world. I go by my own schedule and my own timeline. So much for my timeline that it’s just January and I’m still super stressed out with the wedding planning and things.

Here comes the time when I am becoming too harsh on myself again. I’ve been pushing myself too much on becoming a Team Leader and failing for the fourth time. It was already a done deal. I don’t wanna try again, that’s what I’m telling myself these days.

I just want to enjoy my wedding planning and just enjoy the time and how fast it flies. And speaking of time, January is almost over! I can’t imagine!! January just happened and it was quite productive. We were able to meet some potential Wedding Event planners and coordinators and sadly, we haven’t reserved the church yet. It’s because the church only needs less than a year to be reserved. So, while we’re chillaxing, we are also planning to meet up with a potential gown designer this weekend. That’s the plan so far.

Up until now, I still can’t believe that this ring on my finger means that I’m going to get married to Ino.

I am actually struggling with my idea of a simple wedding.

How could a simple wedding exceed P100,000? How could a simple wedding comprise of a huge church and a fairy tale theme? I don’t know. The idea of making it on the big day is one thing. The horror of nobody attending is one thing. The horror of having a disaster of a gown is also another thing that stresses me. It’s too early and it’s just about a month that has passed. As much as I want to enjoy the experience, I have too many worries in my mind. 😦